What a day.

Hello.

Sometimes I get overwhelmed at how wonderfully a day goes. It’s an “awe” moment, when you realize not everything sucks.

Woke up at 4:30am this morning. I don’t know what’s going on with me, but I haven’t been able to sleep through the night in over a MONTH! It’s horrible. I wake up and am awake for an hour or more. I finally fall back asleep, and the dogs wake me up. It’s. So. Annoying. I miss sleep. Once I stepped outside to leave for work, I saw the beauty in the day. The overcast was welcomed.

My bosses and I have been talking about changing my office computer to a Mac for a few weeks now. Everyone knows…I am Val, and I’m a PC. My uncomfortableness and skepticism about it’s usage, made it difficult to persuade them against it. Every day I deal with Mac users. There are times when I hear we can’t open this. Aren’t Mac and PC supposed to be compatible? I tried to fight it, but in the end, I had to tell myself Get over it. You’re not an idiot. You’ll figure it out. Stop being afraid of failure.

And so, Boss#2 and I went to the Mac store and bought one. The large screen makes my office seem funny now. It’ll take some time to get used to it. I think it’s too big. When you have to turn your head left and right to see the whole thing, it’s a bit overkill.

I heard bff@work on the phone with his wife talking about having pizza for dinner. On my drive home, I started thinking about how good that sounded. I didn’t want to order pizza (cause I never eat it all-just ends up being a waste), so I settled for a frozen pizza. I really wish I hadn’t.

I settled on the couch to watch NCIS. So glad I did. I was gonna watch something else, but didn’t. Figured it could wait, and Gibbs couldn’t. Mmm.

I balled my eyes out while watching it. Uncontrollable crying. It was ugly, but necessary. And it was the first time I had cried in months. All the emotions and feelings came flooding out. All because of a television show. A very good television show.

What the hell is wrong with Hope? Maks was obviously spoken to by the head honchos at DWTS because he’s been real cheerful and smiley ever since his outburst. But Hope? Really? We get that you’re stressed. We get that you’re hurt. We get that your competitiveness is shinning out and showing us exactly how much you hate to lose. We get it. But we’re tired of it. As much as I hate to see Maks gone, I hope you get the boot this week.

Okay, enough from me. I’m exhausted (if only I could actually sleep), and I need to be at the ranch early to play with the new computer. Transferring files will be a better part of my morning. All while trying to get other things done. I can’t wait!

Till next time…